My Conclusions and What Not

This week i've had a lot of epiphanies more than usual, mostly while in the shower lol. The one that stuck to me the most was my connection with people. I've been in constant flux with the way i feel about my peers. It seems as though my generation has lost their soul. Everyone is watered down but still thirsty, of the right things? Maybe not.  My big epiphany or accepted epiphany is that i am in the wrong generation. Carefully moving with the out-beat-structure of things and feeling like im the only one who notices that we are dancing to the wrong tune(s)

My reasoning for feeling so out place is solely based on my interactions with the people from my generation versus the lather. I find it a lot more "rewarding" hanging out with folks who are 23-26 more-so the ones 19-22.  I feel more at ease, a lot more comfortable speaking on certain subjects,  and its so dog-gone EFFORTLESS. On a rare occasion that do I find folks that are on the same tune as me,( not to say my tune is absolute, but im positive it's great)I flock to them.

When I meet folks my age, especially girls. I can vibe who's out to get what. Most times they show themselves within the first five minutes of conversation.Theres this passive-aggressive vibe I get, its so bizarre. Its like this basically, chicks love your style and your whole package but cant seem to step outside of the image and get to you as a person on the inside. I've noticed this with girls that are 18-22 particularly.

For example, I met this girl and she loved LOVED my style and she seemed to be really open.I was thinking ok she seems COOL to kick it with. I extended an "arm" of "friendship" and invited her on a lunch date so we can get to know each other, she just threw the idea off like i was pest. Now at this point i knew it had nothing to do with me cause im awesome, but it was distasteful on her part. Its like they welcome you with arms wide open, smiling and as you come in for the hug and their arms closes with a grin. I have NEVER EVER encountered this with any of the older girls i meet. The older girls compliment you, they're curious about you as a person, they make a CONNECTION and they keep it.

My conclusion is that my generation has been engulfed in lies about individuality. Media(society) has projected to us what unity is supposed to look like and its not even halfway true. The ones who dialuge the bullshit usually show the symptoms in their personality. It shows in the way they move, their lack of trust, the obsessiveness  over "me" vs "us". The folks that move in cliques and calls themselves INDIVIDUALS. Its really unfortunate! Im just going to deal with it and call it life. lol

Well, i've come to the end of my rant. Thank y'all for reading and understanding, if you did.

I appreciate
Peace